She woke up one gloomy day Feeling as happy as can be Everything was lovely Everything complete Cause lovingly caressing her was he But, in her heart of hearts In her mind of minds She was aware this wasn’t here to last She knew she was just a choice And soon to be the one un-chosen However ready she tried to be The dread that followed was unspoken
And then that day The D-day The day when questions had to be stopped The choice was made And the obvious was picked The even more obvious was dropped
With that her world came crashing down Crashing down at a velocity that multiplied Multiplied with every tear Multiplied with every breath Multiplied with every heartbeat And everything she had ever known The uncertainty she had chosen The hard life, the tough way through Was all gone, the slate wiped clean And she was lost Her dreams crushed Her heart ruined Her soul wasted And all that she could see was he Everything else drew a blank A painfully plain white blank
She sat there in silence Wanting to be imperceptible Tears defiantly trickling down her cheek Betraying her show of strength Body yelling out to her man To be embraced, to be comforted
But he watched He watched and stared Strong but scared He watched her with love and pity He watched her helplessly He watched her cluelessly And yet she sat there in silence Consumed by the environment The room where they made memories The house she decorated as her own The smells The sounds The emotions She took them all in Slowly, one at a time Each fragment seeping in, burning and aching Like a wounded animal in sea water Left there to fend for itself No one to see it defeated No one to hear it yelp No one to comfort it Completely bruised, beaten, battered from head to toe
Until she knew not why she was still there Stagnant in despair Afraid, fearful of the unknown Going back to the life she knew nothing of Going back to what she had left behind
Every change he brought in her Every new belief he inculcated Every feeling she was newly introduced to It had to go It had to be deconstructed It had to become nonexistent again Like a rewind to life Like a deleted movie scene Like it never happened at all
It was now time to leave To say their goodbyes To go off on paths which were already set Right from the start Like they were just a temporary diversion A happy break from their permanent mundane And people would forget what they had Cause that’s how it is But they never will They will hold on to it for dear life Cause everything real, everything fortunate Every ounce of happy they will ever know Was all in that break Like a hungry beggar holding on to his only piece of bread And they will feel the love they once shared For as long as eternity They will fondle they’re story like an adolescent Cause they’re love is a story without an end...