B L A _ K

There are 2 ways to look at the title of this post… It could be spelled as Bla‘n’k or Bla‘c’k.. Either-ways, it defines exactly what I’ve been going through lately.

I sit in front of my laptop every single day, trying to write down something in every possible way. But for the first time I’m fumbling thinking of things to say. No words are definite enough or no proverb is metaphoric enough to describe these troubled waters.

Is this how you feel when you push away something that meant the most to you?
Does every door of opportunity start to shut in your face?
Can someone really become so helpless from being so independent?
Do solitude & work become your only friends in this hour of need?
When exactly is too late?
What are the right words to say to fix things?
What is the right time to face your fears?
Is it safe to get up now or will I just fall again?
Was anything ever real or was it all perfect only in my head?

Infinite questions.. But where are the answers?
The answers lie within us… There is a reason why people ask questions. It’s because they know the various possible answers. The only thing left to do is choose the right one – the one most suitable for us & our situations.

Everyone has the right to be scared – to wonder whether they have chosen the right answer. But everyone also has the right to take a chance. Holding on to the phobia of failure is going to find you in the same spot you were years ago. “If you’re taking chances, it means you are plundering possibilities which means you are moving forward.” It’s called Fighting Fear.

There comes a time when every life goes off track. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction.

Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Will you accept your mistakes & rectify them or will you hide under a fake happy face filled with regret? Each morning will you choose to move forward or to simply give up?

Sometimes it’s easier to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, unsatisfied or barely getting by but that feeling is a Lie. Find the courage to face it all. Another day, someone or something will find you and make it all ok because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear their music in the world. Someone to remind us it won’t always be this way. Friends… Family… A lover… Someone will always hold your hand & pull you out of every black hole. But it is you who has to choose whether to give that someone a chance to be your strength or to make a simple life complicated by struggling alone instead.

This Year, for me, has been a terrible one.. Some of it was my own fault & some of it was inevitable. I had everything I ever dreamed of, but I was too scared to own it or even to fight to keep it all. But that’s considering that this is only the 3rd month of 2012. Its my decision whether to use the rest of the year to make things right or to continue making everything more chaotic & messy.

It may have taken longer then necessary, but I made my choice!

Now is the time for me to shine. The time for me to become the person I’ve always dreamed of being. This is my world. I’m here. I am what matters. The world & my ego can go screw themselves!

“Faith is believing when there’s nothing else you can do”

7 Comments Add yours

  1. Wow, superb blog layout! How long have you been blogging for?
    you made blogging look easy. The overall look of your site
    is magnificent, as well as the content!


  2. Anonymous says:

    I say stop to being perfect. Lets…..lets evolve along with time and let the coins fall in place..!!


  3. Grisha D. says:

    awww thank u sweet heart!! will definitely write loads more 🙂


  4. suraj hirani says:

    i m not a fan of any writers nor i read any books but reading your blogs has made me yor BIG BIG fan nd i m waiting for more blogs to come form you


  5. Jackanova says:

    I take it in this way.. thought when there is thousands of unanswered question … some of them are unnecessary because they bound to occur because of habits…. For me, Different people surround… some pass by.. some leaves questions around… Some too good to be accepted otherwise… some too bad and accepted twice… Life gives varity of choices… all that matters is what.. and when u chose it… for me… So far… so good. :)…


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